Hello again Jordan,
I have a question for you but
understand if you don't have the time to answer.
As you can see trough the precedent
messages, I had issues with depression and since then I've been trying to
change my habits and my thoughts. I got a job at a bank and suddenly my
new spiritual work was tested and not strong enough. I've been there for 3
months and a half and had 2 panic attacks and 3 digestive problems due to my
nervous stomach.
My question is if there's something to
gain trough the struggle (learn about misled mostly) or if there's a point when
enough is enough and my lesson should be learned and then move on. The only
great thing about that job was the money but it doesn't seem to be worth it as
I'm feeling miserable. But part of me thinks I'm just being weak because others
do it without problems and I should just suck it up.
Once again, thank you for the Light,
Sofia
Hello Sofia,
Thank you for your patience in my
response. It is wonderful that you're putting energy into trying to
change your habits and thoughts. Doing this shows your aware of
challenges you face and are working to overcome your challenges. You
should be proud of yourself and perhaps you might consider being more patient
with yourself. It's common to want to fix a problem immediately and feel
discontent when change takes longer than one would like. The path of
evolution never ends and as time is a human concept, overcoming challenges that
we face over and over is very possible, yet may take some time.
Have you spoken to someone about your
depression? I ask because other members who write in have expressed how
counseling helped them tremendously, especially after they started down their
spiritual path and started looking within. When a person looks within and
learn more about himself or herself, he or she is able to contribute more
to sessions and typically have found therapy helped them overcome the hurdles
they were trying to defeat themselves.
Anxiety is the body's way of
telling us something is wrong. In your case, you know what the
trigger of your anxiety is and the question you may want to ask
yourself is if its the energy of your work environment causing the problem
and what is it about the environment that makes you anxious. Is there something
about the job that you're correlating with something (or someone) from your
past and perhaps triggering old emotions? If that is the case, you might
consider therapy to overcome whatever in the past is still affecting you.
Often we don't realize the affect something in our past had on us until we're
exposed to similar situations or people, which typically triggers old
emotions.
On the other hand, if you
feel the environment at your job is simply negative and drains the
positive energy from you simply because that's the environment and what your
exposed to each day, then perhaps it is time for you to consider a
new path. While there is often lessons tied with struggle, there is also
a time when the lessons are learned and it is time to form a new path, taking
the lessons and your higher evolved self down a new journey.
The page and pages linked to the page, Spiritual Evolution may
help you if you decide to work on creating a new path of destiny. The
steps of spiritual evolution can be applied to any aspect of your life and help
create a new plan, including creating a new career path at a job where the
energy helps you grow and evolve to the person you are striving to
become.
Don't give up and don't allow the struggle to consume the light within you. The light is stronger than the dark and always shines brighter. It may not always be easy, but I have faith in your strength.
I'm always here if you want to talk or
need any advice!
Love and Lots of Light,
Jordan
Canon
Spiritual
Advisor
Free-Spiritual-Guidance.com
Thank you for the kind words Jordan.
This job in particular was just
something to help me get somewhere (interior design) and save some money and
indeed the kind of tasks that are/were asked from me, even though are very
common in a world dominated by consumerism and money, I felt were not aligned
with my core principles. Not that I'm better than others but I just can't feel
okay with my conscience manipulating clients by not telling the whole truth or
using strategies to make them forced to accept my offers. There's not even a
bigger, better or honorable goal behind it to motivate me to overcome those
issues more that I already tried.
This job is well paid and difficult to
get which enhances my "guilty" feelings like I deceived who hired me
trough the long selection process, but maybe this anxiety attack was a wake up
call in the sense that I should do something closer to my "element"
in order to also get closer to the person I want to be instead of the one I end
up being while hopelessly struggling.
I already have a session booked to a
psychiatrist and I'm being medicated, but not for long I hope. From the moment
that I left that job in my mind, life feels brighter and bigger and I promissed
myslef that I deserve more of that and to work on that just like you wrote, the
Evolution Process.
Thank you again my friend, can I call
you that? :)
Sincerely,
Sofia*
Hello Sofia,
I'm honored to have you call me your
friend :) You're very welcome, though no thanks are necessary. It
is you who invested energy in working through your job concerns and decided to
write me, and for that you should be proud of yourself!
It seems you have a clear understanding
of what it is about the job that doesn't fit. There is nothing wrong with
realizing a path chosen is wrong. Would you end a relationship if you started
dating someone and realized he wasn't a right fit? Your job is where
you spend a good portion of your day, right? Don't you think you deserve
to find a job that motivates and helps you grow rather than one that
stresses you to the point of panic attacks. Any negative
environment that affects your happiness and other aspects of your life can be
evaluated and changed, if so desired.
Fear and guilt are temptations and try
to keep us from the light.
You can make that picture in your mind a
reality. Believe in yourself and all that you are capable of and you'll
be amazed at what future you can create for yourself.
Have you considered yoga? Perhaps
some sort of yoga/meditation can help you manage the anxiety and make you feel
more ease. Just a suggestion that popped into my mind :)
Love
and Light,
Jordan
Canon
Spiritual
Advisor
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